Unfortunately, the doctor and I have been able to feel one of Jackie's lumps. And not just once, but for a couple of months in a row. It's in a lymph node in her neck near her collar bone. I have a bad feeling about this. I hope that I am wrong. The bad feeling is due to the fact that, if it's cancer, it has crossed from the right side of Jackie's body to the left, and that would not be good.

More bad news upon being referred to the surgeon -- he felt it as well. It needs to come out and be biopsied. Yogi Bera said it best -- "Déjà vu all over again." However, this time the doctors aren't making the reassuring noises they made for the very first lump -- they all look rather grim.